Reminder: I made the Scale ashamed

When I presented my deeds on the Scale of God on the Day of Judgment, my soul trembled with shame, and the Scale itself seemed to shudder with embarrassment. For I beheld the works I possessed—feeble, insubstantial, carrying no weight in the sight of the Most Merciful, and I had never imagined that I would place anything upon His Scale that could be reckoned.
I saw the Scale weighing that which truly carries worth and splendour in the presence of God, while my deeds appeared trivial, like dust scattered across an endless expanse. How vast is the chasm between truth and falsehood, between righteous acts that elevate the soul to the heavens, and my own actions, scarcely fit even for myself, let alone for others!
What then shall be the state of one like me, when all deeds are presented with absolute truth, and the angels record every word, every hidden thought of the heart? How shall I face the justice and mercy of God together, when I see myself so small, so contemptible, and my works so feeble, melting away in the balance of that Supreme Wealth, exalted in His glory?
Oh, that I had sown goodness before the days swept me along, and piled up virtues before my soul awakened to the realities of existence, before the Scale stood shy and abashed before my littleness and my weakness!
It is a profound lesson for every servant who imagines that mere action alone suffices, that recitation without sincerity or deed without illumination can establish a true balance. The true weight in God’s Scale is not in number, but in quality, in the purity of intention, in sincerity, and in upright action that elevates the soul and satisfies the heart even before the Scale itself.
Oh, that my heart had hastened towards the Light, and my hands been filled with good, so that when the Scale is lifted, I shall not be disgraced, and when my deeds are weighed, I might find therein the pleasure of God, not shame.

(by: Dr Mohammed Akram Nadwi, Oxford, 21 Ramadan 1447)